I owe myself so many apologies!! 

Dear self:

I’d like to apologize. I pushed you around, called you ugly, told you, you weren’t good enough, lied to you & said you were alone in the world, even though you AREN’T. I fed you disgustingly and then acted like it was your fault and not mine. I lead you around in search of things I should have been giving to you. I put you on display in ways you weren’t prepared for & expected too much from you, but didn’t give you enough credit. I treated you like crap!! I have been a horrible mommy :'(😭. But if you give me a chance, I’ll lift you out of the rubble left from the hurricane I inflicted on you. In my defense, I was so insecure. I felt wrong, like I was supposed to be something else & I was just trying to figure out what that was. Now I am realizing that what other people want me to be is a million different  irrelevant things that I need to ignore, and focus on who I want to become. My time & focus will be invested on me. Improving myself becoming a better person physically and mentally. 

#lovemyself 

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27 thoughts on “I owe myself so many apologies!! 

  1. cool. we do treat ourselves badly but when we’re young, we’re a work in progress; when we get older, smugness is our greatest enemy and when we get old, like, unfortunately, me, we spend our time trying to hold ourselves together, wondering where the time, our glasses and possibly, our left slipper, has gone.

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  2. I totally get this feeling: “I felt wrong, like I was supposed to be something else & I was just trying to figure out what that was.”
    It can be painful to figure out who you are, but it’s worth it.

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  3. As they say, Even when you FALL DOWN love yourself. Because humans have a tendency to only help the ones they love! You’ll pick yourself up because you don’t just love yourself, you love your mistakes! And only mistakes show that you’re trying. 🙂
    I dig your work! 😁

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