I owe myself so many apologies!!

Dear self:

I’d like to apologize. I pushed you around, called you ugly, told you, you weren’t good enough, lied to you & said you were alone in the world, even though you AREN’T. I fed you disgustingly and then acted like it was your fault and not mine. I lead you around in search of things I should have been giving to you. I put you on display in ways you weren’t prepared for & expected too much from you, but didn’t give you enough credit. I treated you like crap!! I have been a horrible mommy :'(😭. But if you give me a chance, I’ll lift you out of the rubble left from the hurricane I inflicted on you. In my defense, I was so insecure. I felt wrong, like I was supposed to be something else & I was just trying to figure out what that was. Now I am realizing that what other people want me to be is a million different  irrelevant things that I need to ignore, and focus on who I want to become. My time & focus will be invested on me. Improving myself becoming a better person physically and mentally. 

#lovemyself